by Tara Fannon
...In fact, I don't remember a time when it didn't. It changes in different social environments. It changes based on who I'm with. It even changes based on whether or not I've been to the gym that day. I mostly go between feeling dissatisfied with my physical appearance and not even noticing it. My relationship with food is love-hate. I'm always aware of what I'm eating. Eating healthy and whole is important for obvious reasons but I also don't want to gain weight. I overindulge on caloric foods and then I restrict myself. I regiment my fitness and almost never take a day off. My whole routine holds me captive and I'm tired from it.